I want to preface my post with the general knowledge that I've had my fair share of troubles with the subject matter.
To who all the people here who think about killing themselves, do you have goals in life?
I mean, do you have a piece of paper where you have written what you want in life and a road map on how to get there? I bet you don't.
I do not. I'm having trouble deciding how much of myself I want to dedicate to the world. Our species seems to be coming closer and closer to devouring itself and dragging the Earth down with it as well. Why would I sell part of myself to a people who are capable of this? It seems a better choice to drink myself silly and join the apathetic hordes.
You have to declare war on self pity and be determined to be happy and achieve what you want in life. It's not easy, but the best thing is that everyone can do it.
This is a very optimistic outlook on the nature of humanity. I'm not one to share these romantic ideals of humanism, though.
You need to read positive and inspirational stories to motivate you. There are millions around, but again most people don't look. Too hard, much easier to watch CNN and see soldiers being killed in Iraq, thousands killed in an earthquake etc.
The problem that I, and a few others as well I would guess, have, is a fundamental hang up with the nature of 'inspiration'. What does it inspire you to do? I tend see a lot of people's 'inspiration' as self delusion, and their driving goals to be naive and unrealistic. This leads me to question my own 'inspiration' and my desire to be inspired.
Your life story can also be an inspirational one, and a magnificent one. But the only person who can determine it is you. No one else will care if you achieve what you want in life, so it is all up to you. Which is why negative thoughts and depressive thoughts are a waste of time, and harm you in a strong way. It is imperative that you push these aside, and make a brand new start.
To just 'push these [thoughts] aside' is an unrealistic goal for most people who suffer form these thoughts as they are assaulting the mind constantly. You can yell as loud as it takes for you to clear every thought from your head, but as soon as you quiet down long enough to hear yourself think, they return. Ignoring the driving force behind these thoughts only serves to buy time, and all too often this time isn't taken advantage of.
Have a listen to the Dido song "life for rent". It is about whether you are renting your life, or own your life. If you are doing what you want or working towards it, then you have ownership of your life. If you are in a rut, feeling depressed and not doing what you want, then you are simply renting your life. Society has ownership.
Now I have an idea of whom I am talking to.
Name changes from the old forum are still messing with me but this topic goes hand in hand with the conversation we had before the switch.
The good thing about todays society is that there is no social stigma with depression or suicidal thoughts.
Walk around with my scars in a short sleeved shirt for a week and then say that. Stigma isn't even close to the right word. Our society has a phobia of it. Which goes back to the idea that it's much easier to discuss this with the anonymity that the internet provides.
