Opmod wrote:Someone pointed this out to me today. My room mate came in to tell me I had a phone call and though I was awake becuase I was lying there with my eyes open. I know I used to do this as a kid but have not had anyone mention it since I was in my teens. I have not really changed anything about my life except I have all but quit drinking....strange huh?
Op, what that is called is sleep paralysis. I know this because every time someone died in my youth, I had it. It is like sleepwalking, except you don't get up. Normally what happens is when you sleep and enter REM and dream, your body produces drugs to close your eyes and paralyze you so if you are running in your dream, this does not get you up. Other chemicals pump in to keep you in a state of "dreamtime" if you will. Now, sleepwalkers do not have enough BOTH of these drugs. Their perception and physical behavior becomes action in reality. My brother had severe manifestations of this where he would become violent and paranoid.
Now there is a different manifestation where your eyes are opened but you are still asleep. The paralysis drug is still in effect and you see the room around you, but your dreams or dream feelings are mixed with reality in your brain. (My brother's "episodes" used to start like this.) For me it was visions of God, for others it was being whatever by aliens. Everybody is different. It doesn't matter if you have manifestations you remember or none at all when you wake. What is important to remember is that it is caused by severe trauma or stress, which results in physiological changes in your brain. If you don't remember my name, I remember you and know you went thru bad shit and that is what caused your and my and my brother's shit. Believe it or not your recent cut back on drinking may have caused this episode. To your brain, which is used to receiving this stimulus, it is trying to make up for the alcohol which was once in some way a coping mechanism of your brain.
What I can tell you is this:
1) Don't worry. This is progress. Congratulations on cutting back on the drinking. Your brain will adjust.
2) It's okay. You are just human. It's okay.
3) Hey, call me full of shit, I can take it, but maybe you need to talk to somebody. It is not a big deal and if I'm wrong you can tell me so and I won't argue. Believe it or not I am perfectly capable of seeing when I am completely full of shit. But take care.
Maybe that sounds weird from a guy who can come off like an ass, but that's just politics. At the end of the day we are all just human. Hope you will see what I say in the spirit intended and forgive if I have overstepped my bounds.
...of course, I will still be a prick in an argument... 
But definitely take care.
Oh, and for a laugh, here is me explaining my own "episodes"
http://www.youtube.com/user/canman12345 … wl8pJkE5V8
Last edited by cybert (2010-03-05 06:21:34)
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